It was the very last thing I wanted to do-- surrender to motherhood.
Having a baby wasn’t going to change me or my life or my marriage or anything else. Having a baby was simply going to be an ADDITION to everything else I had in my life, because well... it was MY life. Right? And in MY life I was the one who had control. I had it all planned out. I’m sure my daughter, still in the womb, was laughing at my naiveté and arrogance. She was born fiercely into this world and all my “plans” came right out, too. With all of my motherhood expectations not being met and my former life gone I fell into a deep crevasse of what-the-f*#@-just-happened!?
What happened was the clichéd reality that strikes most new moms today: “a baby changes everything.” I was no exception...