I am a yogini and a mother.
Before, I was totally frazzled, ungrounded, and desperate for change.
And I realized things wouldn't change until I did.
So I did.
I believe the transition into motherhood is a wild and wondrous ride that can be aided by the daily habits of Ayurveda. it’s the little things we do all day that add up to the biggest impact on our life. Potent life transformations occur when the wisdom of Ayurveda is incorporated into daily rhythms.
I’m on a path to guide women into vibrant living amidst the beautiful chaos children can bring.
First, a little background. Of the many adventures I’ve had in my life (from teaching English in South Korea, traveling through Peru and Spain, instructing ballroom dance, and serving as an AmeriCorps member) the biggest, by far, has been the journey into motherhood. Pregnancy was a blast for me and I loved the sense of community and support I felt in my prenatal yoga classes.
Some of you may or may not know about my own journey and transition into motherhood. I’ll briefly tell you in case you don’t know.
It sucked. It was a daily battle of resentment, anxiety, arguments with my partner, hating that I couldn’t “do anything” as a stay-at-home mom, very little movement or exercise, feeling trapped by circumstance, sleep-deprived into insanity, exhausted, coffee-fueled, and I was in the middle of a big massive identity crisis. I drank almost every night because I couldn’t handle my own daily existence and felt overwhelmed as to what to do about my situation. I was so drained and so tired all the time.
I didn’t even know where to start. Add to this the sobering realization that I did NOT want to be married and some very strange neurological issues where no specialist or CAT scan could find anything wrong or that it was the start of any disease... well, friends. I fell apart. It had been a couple of years of hell and I was DONE. From the outside everything looked fine, even beautiful and wonderful. But inside, I was beyond falling apart.
Thankfully I had the inner wisdom to know that I would have to change if I wanted to feel better. I also knew I had a mission on this planet and to serve women. There was no way I could serve that mission as drained as I was. Enter the habits of Ayurveda, yoga’s sister science. It’s been about three years since I started the journey into living Ayurvedically and the difference in my quality of life is unfathomable. I even have friends that say “You really seem to have come into your OWN and into your own power.” Yes.
I sleep deeply, I have more energy, I am so happy that I literally well up with tears at random moments during the day, my mindset is so positive, I’m not hard on myself, I have more connection to my own power and I can hear my intuition and FOLLOW my intuition. I know what I want. I don’t EVER feel guilty about “me time” because I know the value of it. I quit drinking and I drink coffee on occasion because I like it, not because I need caffeine to power me through the day. Even those strange neurological issues went away. My seasonal allergies are improving. My relationship with my daughter is a loving and patient one....
This bio is too short to describe all the small and big and subtle mental, physical and spiritual changes I’ve undergone. But I can tell you- that inside and out, I’m truly joyful. I wish I’d known about these habits and this way of living much earlier in life, but it’s never too late. I now get to live for the next 50 years with these habits and also be that example for my daughter. I wasn’t raised with Ayurveda, but now my daughter can be.
After having my total crisis, I invested in an Ayurvedic training program with a group and was able to be surrounded by women who were struggling with different things in life and to also see how they were able to turn things around as well, slowly but surely. The power of being surrounded by these women was potent and transformative and I know I wouldn’t be as far along as I am now without being part of this group.
IT IS POSSIBLE TO GET SLEEP AND FEEL FRESH IN THE MORNING AND NOT FEEL DRAINED. It’s about habits, not hacks. It’s about slow and steady changes, not big leaps. It’s about committing, not dabbling in the newest health fad. I know there are women who are like me and really WANT to do things differently... who WANT to feel GOOD!
I spent a transformative month living at the Kripalu Center for Yoga and Health getting my 200 hour yoga teacher certification. I received my 85 hour pre/postnatal certificate through the Bhaktishop in Portland, OR. I've trained more than 200 hours in Ayurveda and habit change with Cate Stillman, and specialized in Ayurveda for pregnant mamas and new mothers through Sacred Window's Ayurvedic Doula programs.
I’ve learned a great deal, but still have so much more to learn and all the mamas I encounter inspire me and teach me. I adore this work and I’m honored to serve.
Interested in learning more about me? Read my interview with Bonnie Weeks or follow me on Instagram to share in the adventures of natural movement, yoga, Ayurveda, and motherhood.